Facing Criticism

I asked my friends what good start would I have in my blog. I was asking them for a strong topic that everybody might want to tackle and talk about and topics that they feel everybody is experiencing. So, among all their suggestions, I ended up with this. 

CRITICISM

Basically, as a 16 year old teen living in this kind of world, I've had times when most people really do criticize me. They would often tell me things like:

"why are you even studying here? you're not even smart." 

"yeah right! she only knows how to sing and act and do public speaking but she doesn't even know how to dance.. plus, she's really not that smart" 

"Duhh. she's only a bit beautiful.. but her brain is kinda boo-hoo!!"

" she won't even pass the exam." 

"she doesn't even belong to where we stand. she doesn't even belong with US"

Yeah. Just the same things a simple teen would experience. 

But... 

Those are the moments in my life where in, I don't really know what to do. 

Those are the moments, I started to doubt myself and try to figure out things within me. 

Those are the moments I felt really down.

Moments where in I also started to judge myself.

Those moments when I always try to look in the mirror asking myself: "What is wrong with me? WHY ME?" 

I felt sad.

I felt FORBIDDEN.

I don't get why I get judged just for being MYSELF. I get judged easily for a single mistake I've done....

Those...

Words dreadfully consuming me. 

Those...

Actions that terrifies me. 

So..

I tried to fit in.

I tried to act the way they want me to be.

I tried to be smart. 

I tried to be funny.

I tried to learn how to dance gracefully like they do. 

I tried to be like them.

I pretended to be someone I'm not...

I tried....

But i just can't... 

I've always felt in my entirely life the need to be accepted. The need to be part of something and someone who would accept me as I am. I am a person. I've got my own needs...

Then came a realization in my life which made me really realize that I am different. I started laughing thinking of that SOMEBODY that I tried to be. I'm so ridiculous! Why am I even doing that? :))

Maybe, a lot of people may criticize me just for not being 'geeky' enough but I know to myself that I have that enough wisdom and knowledge to continue and survive in life. To be able to communicate and continue expressing myself to others.

Maybe I'm really not as beautiful as them, but I know that I have flaws which make me stand out and feel gorgeous. These flaws define me. These flaws are the things that make me different. And these flaws are gonna be the things that would lead me to succes and make me reach out my dreams!! 

So, as I continue with my battle in life, I Ignore all those shits. :)) I make a note to myself that

I am not born here to PLEASE EVERYBODY. I am born to LIVE MY LIFE EXACTLY THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE, to HAVE FUN, to BE HAPPY, and hmmmmm probablly PLEASE MYSELF :") I AM DIFFERENT. I AM UNIQUE. And no CRITICISM would ever bring me down. NONE ever!! 

So to those also experiencing things like this? :)) I hope all of you would be enlightened by my simple talk of what I experience too. Just smile your nerves out and ignore all those who bring you down. Feel beautiful!! BE DIFFERENT!! :""))